MKE Week 1 – Starting From Here

Nervous. Excited. Overwhelmed. And downright scared.

Those are probably the four best words to describe how I feel about starting the Master Key Experience.

I’ve never done anything like this before, and honestly, I don’t really know what I’m doing or if it’s going to work. But I’m here, and I’m willing to give it a try.

The truth is, I’m starting this at a pretty difficult point in my life.

I lost everything.

I lost my partner. I lost my home. I lost my belongings. And now I’m out here trying to figure out how to pick up the pieces of my life and make it better.

Part of me wishes I could go back in time and rebuild my relationship with my ex. I wish things could have turned out differently. But I don’t think that’s going to happen.

So, instead, I’m trying to look forward.

What do I want?

I want a place of my own that I can call home. I’d love for it to be somewhere near the ocean. I’d like to get my cats back, if that’s possible. I want to rebuild my confidence, because right now it’s pretty low.

And I want real friendships—people I can be myself with and feel truly close to.

I don’t know yet how I’m going to get from where I am now to where I want to be.

That’s part of why I’m doing the Master Key Experience.

I’m hoping that somehow, through this experience, I’ll begin to figure out what I need to do to get my life back on track. Maybe I’ll discover things about myself that I don’t know yet. Maybe I’ll learn how to change some of the ways I’ve been thinking.

I don’t have the answers.

I don’t even know exactly where this journey is going to take me.

But I’m here.

And maybe that’s where every new beginning starts.