MKE Week 3 – Counting my Blessings

Life goes by so quickly, and you get used to the ins and outs, so much so, that you can take it for granted. That’s what I had been doing. I even thought of my life as “boring”. Then I found this program, and it woke up something in me that I barely remembered feeling – excitement.

So why is it that I am still struggling? I have been asking source, over and over, for something new, something to get me “un-stuck”, and I know this is it. A real chance at a life I’ve only dreamed of. I mean, can you imagine waking up excited for the day, everyday? I couldn’t, and that was a problem.

I kept getting my Definite Major Purpose (DMP) back with the same remarks, “that’s great, but how did it make you FEEL?” I had spent so long just going through the motions that I couldn’t answer that.

So I watched week 3 webinar again, and I heard something I had heard many times, but this time it hit differently. “You have to want this for YOURSELF. ” In order to fo that, you have to really love yourself, and I didn’t think I could. But at that moment, I heard a voice.

The same voice I had heard many times, (my subconscious,) only this time, it spoke differently. Instead of berating myself for struggling, it let me know that the fact that I am struggling, and still persisting, is the proof that I do love myself!

And that simple shift in perception was all I needed. I rewrote my dmp easily expressing my feelings, and this time, I could actually see the whole thing play out in my head, it felt like a real piece of me, instead of a story of wishes. So I am counting my blessings, and now I can see that struggle can be a positive thing!